sometimes you work the night shift at the liberry...
you spend your 10 minute break thumbing through books, find an interview of Mother Teresa and innocently think, "Ah. This will be a nice little pick me up." plus she's adorable and saintly what not.
and then you randomly flip open to this quote:
"It is not very often things that the people need...In these 20 years of work amongst the people, I have come more and more to realize that it is being unwanted that is the worst disease that any human being can ever experience....we have found medicines for leporsy, TB...For all kinds of diseases there are medicines and cures. But for being unwanted (except that there are willing hands to serve and there's a loving heart to love) I don't think this terrible disease can ever be cured."
arrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggghhhhhhhh....it hurts to even read it
you have to lie down right there in the large print aisle, because she sounds right, i mean she MUST be right...she's Mother flipping Teresa, and it FEELS like she has hit the nail right on the head in all her gnarled-hand, wrinkled-face dearness....like she just summed up the problem with the whole world in one profound statement. and thinking about ANYone feeling unwanted in the world makes you want to bury your nose in the liberry carpet and never get up again because what can you even do to heal that?
but your 10 minutes is almost over.
so you just get up, wipe the lint off your tongue, and
go right back to choosing Amish romances for Miss Olive.
reading never did anyone a damn bit 'o good.