when they don't, they are shocked and mad.
others are waiting 'til they "fuck this up too."
where is this learned?
because I think it IS learned.
it can sound like a cop out - self-deprecating is easier - and maybe it's used that way sometimes. but even when it's laziness, I suspect it didn't start that way.
I don't know much, but I know this: some people seem to DO so well, but can only SEE their gaps, lacking, failures...
seeing these short comings leads to more.
self-fulfilling prophecy.
I don't know how to fix it.
"fix..." hmmm...
maybe that word is the problem.
believing we need to be fixed,
believing there was a model and we fell out of "true" like a house off balance and must work our way back.
then again, maybe the goal isn't back or even forward.
maybe just be. here. now. as you are.
and if i'm wrong, and we are "out of true," well then, at least all the gumballs will roll down our lopsided floors and they'll be easy to find in the corner.
corner gumball party!
